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Mon, Nov. 26th, 2007, 11:31 am
I'll see you at the end.

I died on a Monday morning in late November of 2007. The skies were grey, my favorite color. I listened to some relaxing music while I wrote out this farewell, and made my peace with whatever governing forces there may be in this universe. I understand that there may be a price to pay in taking my own life. But, I am willing to pay the price to learn the absolute truth. At the risk of sounding cliche, I have no regrets in life. I've actually lived longer than I imagined I would. I've loved, been loved, and enjoyed a lot of what life has to offer. I've had friends come and go, and friends that will read this, and will even be sad that I'm gone. And to those of you who fall into that category, I want to thank you for any and all kindness you showed me as a person. I am sorry, truly, for any pain that I have caused any of you. While it would be nice to have you all remember my name in a positive light, it is not important, only the time we had together is. I want you all to know that I love you, so very much, and that if I have any say in it, I will be around to show you the way back home. Those of you who know me well enough will smile when you learn that I went out with a cigarette in my mouth and a smile on my face. Take care, all of you.

Mon, Nov. 26th, 2007 10:53 pm (UTC)
nissacat

Luke Please mean this figuratively.

Mon, Nov. 26th, 2007 11:40 pm (UTC)
disorted

I'm hoping the same...

Where the hell are you, man? You're not in Orlando anymore, are you?

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 01:08 am (UTC)
l0st_in_a_haze

Luke please be a sick joke, I've already had one person kill themselve I wont be able to handle you doing it to. It will break me please!

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 01:28 am (UTC)
pixink


I share the same sentiment...

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 01:47 am (UTC)
devil_of_paris

Please, oh please, no.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 03:19 am (UTC)
linnai

Didn't know what else to do. Reported this to the Abuse Team in the hopes that there is some way they can alert your local authorities.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 03:54 am (UTC)
3libras

This better not be real, because I swear, I will never forgive you if you actually killed yourself.

You said you'd take me out! You said we'd trip together, have fun, have crazy adventures! If you really killed yourself... then you lied to me. And you were the last person I expected to do that... and it breaks my heart.

Please be alive...

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 04:48 am (UTC)
linnai

If you know where he lives, and can give me his basic info (name/city, county/location), I will call the police to have someone check on him. Or you could call?

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 07:01 am (UTC)
kyouri

I hope we find something. I just recently already had a friend kill themselves, I wouldn't like to know another. Not so soon.. Especially would be harder this time because I was closer to him than my last friend. :(

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 01:29 pm (UTC)
l0st_in_a_haze

Same here so I know how you feel. He definitly has a lot of people who care about him. -sigh-

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 11:23 am (UTC)
lavender_eve

Luke i really hope you are safe.

if anyone hears anything please let me know.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 02:05 pm (UTC)
swordborne

I hope things are ok, I know I haven't talked to you since you moved, but then, I was just getting to know you then. You are still someone worth knowing.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 04:56 pm (UTC)
delbaeth

Luke, what the fuck?

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 05:29 pm (UTC)
delbaeth

I called a deputy in Queen Creek. Luke died yesterday morning.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 07:02 pm (UTC)
disorted

Please keep me updated on any services that might be held for him. I may try to make it out there, depending on the day.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 07:18 pm (UTC)
delbaeth

Does anyone know any contact info to his family's house in Queen Creek. There is a group of friends of us from Florida, that would really like to get a chance to speak with his family. Or perhaps attend any services. Please email the contact info if anyone has to nickpacifico@gmail.com . This is a friend of his email.

Tue, Nov. 27th, 2007 07:40 pm (UTC)
l0st_in_a_haze

I have his house number but long distance phone numbers cant go through. Maybe I can ask his friend who lives near by.

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 12:59 am (UTC)
de_linques

:(

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:(

Fuck.


- Us

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 01:02 am (UTC)
de_linques

And on a more coherent note.

We're still hoping this isn't true, and if it is we're thinking of all the ways we could have prevented it, and how we could have made more effort to stay in touch. We're very grieved and confused and will keep checking back.


- Luc (the other one)
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Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 01:01 am (UTC)
faelad

Please, no...

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 02:31 am (UTC)
emmys_ducks

Rest in peace, Luke. You'll be greatly missed :(

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 03:03 am (UTC)
widescreen81

See you on the other side, bro.

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 03:44 am (UTC)
pixink


You all don't know me, but, if you need to talk, please don't hesitate. Luca was my ex's roommate when he lived in New Mexico.

fiveohfive twotwozero nineeightseventwo

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 03:53 am (UTC)
lavender_eve

i'm still having a hard time believing this is true. you will be missed my friend.

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 04:09 am (UTC)
drea

i hope there is peace
only love
andrea

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 04:46 am (UTC)
kara_chan

This is all coming to me as a shock and it's definitely getting tough to hold back the tears. We all need to be strong for eachother. If anyone wants to talk about this, us Florida people should have a get together and grieve together.

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 02:06 pm (UTC)
l0st_in_a_haze

yes I think we should it may help, I know that Luke would be happy if we did that. We should try to figure out a day.

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 02:08 pm (UTC)
xbrandishx

I just, I don't even know what to say. There's nothing. Damn, I'm gonna miss this guy :'(. I found a quote, maybe this will help someone deal with grief, I know it's helped me when I've lost friends in the past. We had some words, but I'm so so so glad I met Luke, I'm glad he lived with me, I'm glad I got a chance to be his friend.

"Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain. And could you keep your heart in wonder at the daily miracles of your life, your pain would not seem less wondrous than your joy; Much of your pain is self-chosen. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore trust the physician, and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility . . . "

Khalil Gibran

So long, space cowboy....

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 08:19 pm (UTC)
metamercury: Lucas

Hey if there was anyway anyone knows how to contact the family of Luke and can let me know I would love it. I am a friend of his from Orlando and I wanted to pay some respects perhaps let their family know what a great guy their son was to me and others. If anyone does not want to post the info here please email me at nickpacifico@gmail.com Im also open to talking to anyone, so feel free to email me. I wish to pay my respects with more than a livejournal post.

Luke was a great friend. Luke was always an AWESOME presence to be around and brought tremendous amounts of joy with little thoughts about himself to his humble friends here in central florida. The day we dropped him at the bus station he was already sorely missed. I wished to ride them cycles and shoot them guns in the desert friend.

Red teams finest has left us.
RIP friend.

Wed, Nov. 28th, 2007 09:49 pm (UTC)
ycardaria

<3

Thu, Nov. 29th, 2007 01:47 am (UTC)
csiegfried: Luke's Funeral

Hello everyone,

I am Luke's cousin in AZ and have just been told about this posting. I will definitely show his parents this information. They will definitely be happy to know that he has many friends that care about him. Thank you for your thoughts.

As of right now, the funeral is tentatively scheduled for Saturday, but may change. As soon as I find out more details I will post them. If you would like to call his parents their phone number is

foureightzero nineeightseven ninezerozerosix

I'm sure cards or anything would be appreciated as well. Their address is

19302 E. Via De Olivos
Queen Creek, AZ 85242

My email address is

carrie

at

redplanetdesigns

dot

com

if anyone wants it.

Thank you all very much for your friendship to him. I'm sure it meant a lot! He was a very caring person.


Carrie Siegfried

Thu, Nov. 29th, 2007 02:06 am (UTC)
linnai: Re: Luke's Funeral

Thank you, Carrie. I'm sure everyone else appreciates this update as much as I do. He will be sorely missed.
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